Who Are You - A "Little" Woman Seeking for Love & Happiness

Just came back from a gathering with my uni mates. Its disheartening looking at how disoriented one of my uni mates, Joshua is. Idling around aimlessly after graduation with no urgency to look for job. I'm not saying that getting a job is the only and most important thing. Of course he could always choose to travel the world if he is loaded, but sadly he is not. So its a bread vs erm nothing, not even love, scenario for him.

Then we have came to the conclusion that he don't even know his own identity. The million dollar question: who are you? I had some thoughts about it and an answer just dawn on me. I am a "little" woman looking for love and happiness. I don't need to be very rich, just sufficient to support my travelling with my partner and some to spare for my greedy mum. Jiin, so who are you? Have you ever thought about that?

With potential love and happiness in sight, I realised I am pretty happy recently. Except today as I am facing Irene-withdrawal syndrome. Irene is my dear colleague who has resigned. I'm so happy as I have regained my passion for travelling and astronomy. Or maybe its the other way round. I've never figured which is the egg and which is the chicken. But in anyway, I'm just overjoyed that I've been resurrected! Its great to have some goals to look forward to and the passion to reach for them. I'm not sure if this passion will continue on when Tadashi returns to Tokyo then or not. Perhaps his absence would be a test to my "feelings". I realised I have a tendency to fall in too quickly and before I knew it, I'm out of it only then to realise at much later that he is really not that important to me. Sad right?

Hmm.. wondering if there will ever be a day that Tadashi chance upon this. Ok being hua1 chi1 and seeking advice from Jiin... do you think I should continue to take initiative to ask him out or wait for him to ask me out? Challenging problem is that he is a Japanese, meaning he is shy and reserved. Dear Aunt Jiin... pls advise the little confused girl, Lai. Hahaha...