Episode 6

Its a sunny day at Batam for cable-sking. Hmm but more aptly put, its knee-boarding (i.e. kneeling on my knees on a board and pulled by the cable). Tried to cable ski but failed to stand up. And oh man... 2 rounds of knee boarding which is 4 minutes in total is a freaking tone-up session for the arms. My arms are still wobbling slightly and I even have difficulty wearing my pants. Shagged!

Its Episode 6 because Tadashi is involved :) Kinda like the first group outing we had. The previous ones are always just the 2 of us which I pretty much enjoyed the attention and proximity. Not a bad experience I must say though initially its always me trying to hang around him more often. Had some tinge of jealousy cos his time was divided among different people... but I guess its not really jealousy per se as I was already expecting this situation. Hmm... I think it ultimately boils down with not having a chance to discuss our replacement trip (if any). Yah.. I am still feeling very upset about the stillborn Bhutan trip. The angel me will try to comfort myself by saying if there's not replacement trip, I could always make a visit to Japan instead and just spend some time with him. That is provided if our status is confirmed kind. The devil me will try to manage expectations by saying he is simply not interested in you and your trip.

So I am slightly concerned about the ambiguity between the 2 of us. Are we just good friends cum colleagues or more than good friends? This reminds me of my team manager dating experience with her then bf and now husband. She got so fed up after several mths of dating I guess that she just asked him directly about their relationship. After some analysis, I believe we are more than just friends.

Sign 1: We have been hanging out quite frequently with each other. At least we have been seeing each other for about 4 weekends.

Sign 2: Japanese are known to keep their distances when interacting with people. But this has being diminishing between us. Oh yah so this brings me to a gossip which my team had during one lunch. Its like for some couples, you can tell they are an item from the way they hang around each other... be it walking tgt with or without holding hands. Hmm.. so my team was gossiping that my VP and her husband appear so distant. Its as if they were just mere colleagues going out for lunch tgt.

Sign 3: We share quite a fair bit about our families and those things which we would normally feel uncomfortable to share with others. Haha but oh well... it could just be me being the kpoh one and keep probing.

Sign 4: We've talked about our criteria for partners and shared our love history. Hmmm... however this might not be an accurate indicator that we are more than just friends. This is because the damn cute guy also just share this things without inhibition during our first lunch date! Frankly speaking, I don't mind talking about criteria but as for love history... that's a bit too private.

Some observations about him today which might be discouraging towards the proposition that we are more than friends... I realised I have been showering him with more concern than he is towards me. And I think he gets pretty focused while playing. So I just see him keep queuing up to try cable skiing, fell down into water and then queued up again without coming by to ask you how's your experience so far etc. And yah if he wants to avoid certain question, he always pretend he don't understand. Can u imagine I was joking with him if those scars are lovebites, he went: what's lovebite? For a moment I thought he really dunno lor. But I like the way he loosens up and dare to play more with me like poking me when I poked him. Keke...